I almost missed my purpose. I almost lost the best thing that will ever happen to me. I almost let go of my dream.
Last spring, I came to the conclusion that my dreams of being the next editor-in-chief mixed with a dash of Oprah Winfrey were only a phase. I truly felt that all I had learned and studied in college would be nothing but a waste because I had a “realization” that my calling was to become a teacher. I’ve always had the desire in my heart to be someone who would have a major influence in the lives of others, therefore I felt that being a teacher was the only path for me to do so.
I started looking into teaching corps programs, grad school programs, and so much more. When people would ask me what was next and I would tell them that I was going off to be a teacher, they would look at me like I was crazy. All I had ever talked about prior to this decision was journalism and how much I loved to write. Me becoming a teacher didn’t make sense in relation to my true purpose and others could sense that. Unfortunately at the time, I could not.
As my time in college began to come to a close, I began to start thinking harder about my future. I would pray to God that He would show me what my true purpose was. I would dig into the Word and keep my eyes and ears as open as possible in order to receive the answer.
I feel that God speaks to me best through what I read. Both through the Bible and daily devotions. One day I was reading a prophecy for and it said:
“You are not moving into a new season, but to a new era. This will not be a simple transition between seasons. This next move will bring into fruition all that you’ve worked for in the past decade. Changes made in the near future will produce significant and lasting results. Move forward with confidence that I am leading you.”
This hit me like a TON of bricks. Since I was 12 until the point where I read that last year, the ten year mark, I’d been writing and working toward the dream of becoming a well-known journalist. In middle school, I started doing morning announcement broadcasts, in high school, I wrote for my school paper, and in college journalism is what I chased after. God revealed to me that these last ten years of me chasing this path was not in vain. It was not a waste. Rather, it is where I am supposed to be! And to think, I allowed my silly emotions to almost make me miss out on what God has created special for me.
From that point forward, I knew it was time to get serious about mine. So, from last May up until where I am today I’ve been putting the pedal to floor. I re-launched my site and made it better than ever. Doing my research, working on my consistency, producing quality and keeping God at the center of it ALL. He has made so many ways out of no way during these last few months. That’s exactly how I know its real.
I believe that there is something out there that God has purposed just for us. Our true calling. It reminds me of how God has designed a person purposed just for us. God presented Eve to Adam. When Adam saw the woman that God destined for him, he exclaimed, “At last! This is bone of my bone and flesh of my flesh.” Last December, God presented me the name, “A Zealous Voice”. When I went to research if anyone else had used the name, I saw that it wasn’t trademarked or used in another capacity. It was all mine! That’s when I was able to say, “At last!” This is something that God designed just for Taylor. Just as we have a set purpose to accomplish with our spouse, we also have a set purpose with our destiny.
“A Zealous Voice” is my destiny. My gift of writing and creative thinking is my destiny. It is going to propel me to a level where I will be able to live what I love, serve others and give glory to God all at the same time. I almost lost out on it forever, but God opened my eyes. For a long time I neglected and rejected it because I didn’t think it truly was “the one”. It almost became the one that got away.
Today, I am making a vow to my destiny:
I, Taylor, make “A Zealous Voice” my partner for life. You have grown me and changed me for the better in so many ways. You have shown me my true potential and push me forward everyday. Never again will I neglect you. Never again will I push you away. You are a gift given to me from God Himself. Through Him, we are going to change the world. We are going to make a difference together. I must honor God in all that I do, which means that I will honor you in all my ways. I vow to commit to this amazing gift until death do we part."